April 2010—Healing Emotionally through Antaneea
Hi there,
And so we are here in Autumn – a time of changing seasons—and in many cases, a longing in the body for change. And sometimes we don’t recognize that uncomfortable feeling in our bodies that is requesting change before the “hibernation” period. Because just as with nature, our bodies go through cycles as well, and our greatest challenge is to listen to and recognize the messages from our body.
In this light, I share another story of transformation using the tools and techniques from Antaneea; this time on an emotional level.
Wishing you a wonderful season of gentle change and transformation—to becoming the person you are born to be!
Much love,
Michele
Nikki originally came to see me for a 30 minute colour massage. This led to her booking a course of Antaneea therapies. Over the course, it transpired that Nikki has continually attracted unwise relationships into her life, which has continually left her feeling worthless and powerless and very angry at men. Our job was to understand why this was happening and release her from this pattern.
We discovered that Nikki was trying to restore the pain of the past as her body identified that in reality, after experiencing much pain from her dad, having a break in the relationship, her father was returned to her and she and her dad spent many happy years until he was tragically taken from her—and she missed him deeply.
So the pattern uncovered was that her body continually took into her “idyllic” relationships which turned into abusive relationships—sometimes on more than one level— thereby recreating the pain and abuse of the past, trying to recover the love and happiness that was given to her afterwards by her dad—in essence trying to bring her dad (and his love) back into her life. At this stage, she started to see how we create all this “chaos” in our lives in order to heal.
We then began to work on the “aftermath” of these discoveries. Her body was angry at her dad for being irresponsible and dying just when they had started enjoying a wonderfully loving relationship. At first she felt guilty releasing this anger and then realized that anger is not “dad” and holding onto the anger doesn't mean holding on to him and realized that the person and the emotion are separate.
After this, the relationship she was currently in, ended at her behest. Nikki found out that the guy was living a double life—and felt empowered to be able to see the relationship “as it is” and allow herself to leave, maintaining her power and love for herself.
Also at this time, the company she works for was undergoing huge transition and her co-worker was leaving so she felt abandoned. We discovered that the co-worker was there to assist carrying her as a child and she was now leaving in order for Nikki to become the adult she is meant to be, assisting her and allowing her to grow. And Nikki started finally to see the power of herself.
Then a lot of Nikki’s friends started getting into “permanent” relationships and planning weddings and she really felt stranded. We did a little exercise about relationships and what they mean to her – what they give her and what she gives them. So we got a clear picture of what being in a relationship would mean to Nikki. Also, her homework at this time was to set her goals concerning her perfect partner, being very specific as to what she wanted and needed right now. As this was close to valentine’s Day I asked Nikki to send herself flowers and chocolates (or whatever it is that made her feel special) as a sign that she is special to herself—and doesn't require another to show/tell her this. Wow! She did the homework and even before Valentines’ the guy was knocking on her door. She was truly amazed how fast it all can work!
Nikki again came to see me as this “perfect” guy was now irritating her. We worked through the reasons for this and the body showed that she was trying to heal her parents’ relationship—and she was trying to do this through control. We discovered what “chaos” meant to her and healed this in her body—and she “felt free”. A day later, however he left her and this is her email: “...I feel a bit sad about it but I'm not devastated as after our work I now know that when someone or something doesn’t serve you anymore to let it go… “ and after email correspondence between the both of us…: Your feedback made perfectly sense to me so I decided to let him then go, gracefully. And, guess: he came back last night - I could sense fear and uncertainty coming from him and realised men are not always these strong macho bullet proof humans they pretend to be. They also have insecurities and fears of rejection. There and then I responded gentle, genuine, loving and kind towards him: Our relationship turned magically to a much deeper level of trust, understanding and intimacy literally over night. So there you go... :)
Before I started this work with you and a guy leaves or pull-back I used to go out of my mind. I could not even get to work as I became physically sick (vomiting for 2 days) and then I’ll retaliate by verbally attacking the guy. Should he at some or any stage try to make a come-back / reconcile I would be emotionally distant, cynical, sarcastic and unavailable to “punish” him. (Didn’t realise at the time I was only punishing myself.) And so, a love/hate, destructive relationship was created :(
Phew, I wish I started this healing process when I was 18.
And:
Other huge bonuses that I’ve received since my Antaneea sessions with you are:
1) I used to be a serious asthmatic sufferer (since I was 3 months old) and have been on chronic medication since a child. Amazingly, that after my first 3 Antaneea sessions my asthma cleared away and I have not used my medication since (round about September 2009).
2) The first thing I used to do when getting home was lighting that cigarette and smoking one after the other at night. After New Year's eve I hardly ever get an urge for a cigarette. I haven’t even tried to stop smoking – the urge/craving just stopped automatically :)!?
3) I used to suffer from terrible anxiety attacks, paranoia and persecution mania that kept me awake at night. Now I sleep like a baby.
4) My PMS was so bad that I went into this deep depression with thoughts of suicide. I still get a little bit irritated at that time of the month, but phew, it is such a blessing to not be in that emotionally state any more.
Thanks very much Nikki for sharing your story—this is truly an amazing path of discovery you have been on—and I know you are proud of how far you have come. Thank you for being courageous and honest in facing those demons and continuing with the work—also acknowledging yourself for what you have done for you! I am truly blessed to have been allowed to support you through this process—and I know that, more and more, you are growing into the beautiful, loving, powerful person you were born to be.
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